Modern Teenage Insect

by Ryan Velvet

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Lenore. A wonderful piece of art and music, with really solid guitar riffs and fun bouncy bass lines. Tells a captivating story of love and its departure, in a sort of ways, from start to finish. If you like albums such Car Seat Headrest's Monomania, definitely give this a listen. Absolutely recommend.

oh and also, nice album cover. Favorite track: Refrain!.
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1.
Constant reminders put me back Saturday nights spent all sad Why is it that you still live on in my mind? Everything you talked about Seems to appear without a doubt Standing here wishing I could Rewind time I never meant anything I said That might have hurt you Knowing that you are better off Is a fitting punishment With only the best intentions I wasn't worthy of your affection Everybody's short of perfection But in my eyes you were the closest to it Thats why I was hurting so much Jealousy became a monster in me Thats why I had to distance myself Because I couldn't live through the hurt again, but I- (Because I didn't want to be hurt again) Fell in love with your works of art And that was including you Enchanted, enamored with who you are Is a stake right through my heart Cause everything reminds me of you Cause everything reminds me of you (That I once knew) Well I guess that it goes to show What a pathetic loser I am Being unable to cope with the Consequences; that I can't Live with, even a few months later I wish that my feelings would peter Even if we spoke again I broke the branches that fell in hand But I never meant anything I said That might have hurt you Knowing that you are better off Is a fitting punishment Cause everything reminds me of you Cause everything reminds me of you (That I once knew)
2.
I'm so jealous of your hair And just how bleached it is I need to stop living life online, It is so unhealthy I can feel your vibrations Slowly turning stagnant Looking through an oscilloscope Watching them lose life These days don't carry weight But I still have a broken back Where were you when I needed you, In my coldest winter? And it's been a while now Since we have last spoke I regret what I've said Won't you shoot me in my head, cause I can feel your vibrations Slowly turning stagnant Looking through an oscilloscope Watching them lose life There's nothing that you could say That would matter anymore No, I don't want to be Alone anymore
3.
Refrain! 04:20
I am on the cusp of destruction For I am void of any purpose Falling short of expectation I am completely pointless And I wish to cease on pumping, Anymore blood into my atrium And I cannot seek when I hide, This is the way, step inside And she said, to me: Refrain! And she said, to me: "I never wanna see you again" (I don't want to talk to you) Refrain! I am on the cusp of destruction For I am void of any purpose Falling short of expectation I am completely pointless And I wish to cease on pumping, Anymore blood into my atrium And I cannot seek when I hide, This is the way, step inside Refrain! "I never wanna see you again" (I don't want to talk to you)
4.
It's Saturday night You're sitting home alone Looking at your phone Knowing, it'll never, ring Out in the streets Everybody laughs While you're stuck in the past Swimming, in your own self-pity No one's, clapping for you No one's clapping for you No one's, clapping for you No one's clapping for you No one's, clapping for you No one's clapping for you No one's, clapping for you No one's clapping for you That's right, nobody's clapping for you! They're laughing at you! ALL OF THEM!
5.
O, Oizys! 05:20
I can taste your lipstick On the cigarette we shared Even though my throat hurts At least I did it with you Let's just, slow slow down Let's just, slow slow down Let's just, slow slow down Let's just, slow slow down My thoughts of you Just remind me how alone I am Never wanted to hurt myself But ever since then, maybe I have I feel, so so down I feel, so so down I feel, so so down I feel, so so down Shake it, now (Come on now, baby oh oh oh) I see the both of us Incredibly [un]decisive You're so enticing But not so inviting We feel, so so down We feel, so so down We feel, so so down We feel, so so down
6.
Obsession 03:50
7.
Nightmares won't elude me now What's been lost just can't be found Her image still lingers in my head Echoing in back and forth I don't want this anymore Why cant I just let go? What happened to innocence? Everyone's so malevolent I can't describe it myself, Guilty of the same crime And I am always doing time, Always serving my punishment And all those memories Lend itself to remembrance Do you remember all those times? Or to you am I dead? So stupid, young, and dumb What the hell is real love? Why don't we just slow down? Well, nobody understands Hell, I don't understand Does anybody know the answer yet? What happened to innocence? Everyone's so full of shit I can't describe it myself, Guilty of the same crime And I am always doing time, Always serving my punishment And all those memories Lend itself to remembrance Do you remember all those times? Or to you am I dead?
8.
I saw you next to me It must have been in a dream Your arms were so long Wrapping themselves all around me (Oh, oh, oh) What are you doing? (No, no, no) Was I that stupid? (Oh, oh, oh) Where are you going? (No, no, no) Heading to nowhere I used to be an optimist, But ever since we fell apart All of that has now Burned away into the air (Oh, oh, oh) Embers are floating (No, no, no) Hoping they come back soon (Oh, oh, oh) Sparks are rising (No, no, no) Up into the clouds Go ahead and make that wish Sixteen candles Sixteen candles Go and make mistakes with it Sixteen candles Sixteen candles Your fangs never hurt me They only killed me softly Apologies don't need acceptance, That's why this is cutting so much deeper Deeper, Deeper Go ahead and make that wish Sixteen candles Sixteen candles Go and make mistakes with it Sixteen candles Sixteen candles
9.
Mea Culpa 02:40
I have come to set fire to this earth and I only wish it was already burning Forgive me now, God All those times I've called in vain This must be your wrath, Or maybe it's just me These stanzas say it all Or maybe they don't No, I know I've been immature But what else is a teenager for? Forgive me now, God All those times I've called in vain This must be your wrath, Or maybe it's just me You could claim my land And be a conquistador I'd let you take over me I'm a bull to a matador Forgive me now, God All those times I've called in vain This must be your wrath, Or maybe it's just me Or maybe it's just me Or maybe it's just me
10.
So difficult it is to understand, One another, my dear former friend and lover So difficult it is to love again, After all, it's all my fault in the end So, Happiness is all I want for her Even at my expense, it's worth all the world So even if we never speak again, I want to wish her all the very best For her heart, can't be caught It is for her to know what she wants For her heart, can't be bought She has to feel that love in her own heart
11.
Your fangs never hurt me No matter how sharp they are Just like my singing They were pretty sharp Stupid young teenagers Stupid young teenagers Stupid young teenagers We are Your friends don't listen Nobody understands you And even you don't Understand yourself Stupid young teenagers Stupid young teenagers Stupid young teenagers We are All those times spent All those days gone When we were dumb, and Stupid young teenagers Stupid young teenagers Stupid young teenagers We are
12.
Stop living in the past It's doing you no good And it'll never be like, Those days again You can romanticize it You can criticize it But you'll never forget How it really made you feel You can hold my soul in your hands I've long admitted defeat You were right in letting me rot As a fitting punishment You won't romanticize it You will criticize it And you'll never forget How I mistreated you (There's nothing that you could say That would matter anymore I never meant anything I said That might have hurt you Stupid young teenager Stupid young teenager Stupid young teenager I am Forgive me now, God All those times I've called in vain) I never meant anything I said, That might have hurt you. I never meant anything I said, That hurt you.

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A portrait of a lost youth.

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released December 25, 2019

RECORDED AT NOISY DOG STUDIOS
GUITARS, VOX, PERCS, KEYS. - Ryan Velvet
ENGINEERED, MIXED - DJ Swaggman Deluxxx
DRUMS AMAZINGLY PLAYED BY - Michael, Ian, Declan, and Igor :)

SPECIAL THANKS TO THE BLEEDING HEARTS & THE ARTISTS: PAUL MCCARTNEY, JESUS CHRIST, WILL TOLEDO, ROBERT SMITH, BRIAN WILSON, ROBERT ZIMMERMAN, TOM DELONGE, KURDT KOBAIN, TYLER THE CREATOR, RIVERS CUOMO, AND DAVID BOWIE... ALL PROVIDED MUCH INFLUENCE AS ALWAYS... ALONGSIDE: Lars, Vynz, and ██████ [sorry for everything even though u have rightfully forgotten about me and its time i should too], among other important figures such as great friends and family. Thanks everyone for tolerating me, and thank YOU for listening to the album.

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